Friday, January 25, 2008
lady luck is not with me these few days. things has been going so wrong for me. haix. dunno whats wrong la. woke up early for interview. haix. was not a very good experience. the people appear to be so friendly but to us on the phone was lyk super rude la. well maybe to me only. i was sort of scolded by the person on the phone. she said like if i am not even interested in the job then why did i went for that interview then said that they are running a company and thats not a play ground. wtf la. she said this just because i cant work this weekend. and because of this. i decided not to work.yea, can say its just a small matter but to me, i think they are just looking down on us, secondary school students. maybe i am too pampered but i know, i am not spoilt. den after interview went to slack in the toilet den took photos! not in the mood to upload the photos now.
so we boarded on a bus thats bring us all the way back to ang mo kio interchange. then boarded another bus to school. met vivian at the bus stop. then went to opposite coffee shop to buy coffee for miss tay. went into the school in home clothes using the name ' CCM instructors' den passed coffee to Miss tay den was caught by OM den got out of the school. got no place to change into school uniform, so jolene being a very nice soul, lend her house for us to change. thanks jolene. so long never talk to this girl and the time i get to talk to her is in this kind of situation. anyway, really thanks a hundred thousand times for lending us your house. then after changing, helped them with the spray cans then got into the school. then went to hall. well, the air con for the hall is woah, so cold arh. then listen to the principal talk n all then got back result. suck like shit. total shit la. sis was the first to call me. she was anxious to know about my result. all of my peers fair pretty well except for me. haix. called sis n she told me alot of things then she told me to called mummy n papa. so i called. they were like asking why is it like that. but they din really scold me la. just keep asking about this n that that make me really down. the disappointment i had is not just for not doing well but also making daddy and mummy lose hope in me over and over again. from the tone they speak to me on the phone, i can sense that they are really disappointed. sis called again when we left the hall. she told me that its ok n consoled me. she asked if i called my parents n i said i did den i told her what wad their reaction. then she said she will help me tell daddy and mummy. so she sort of put in good words for me in front of my parents. haiz. i am really disappointed so people, stop rubbing salt on my wound saying that how lousy u got but in fact you all are so much better than me. well, its all over. dun worry people, i will be back to my actual self soon.
however, this little failure in my life made me realize how many people cared for me. i wanna thanks the following people :
Diana for lending your shoulder for me to lean on when i needed one.
Vivian for cheering me up all the ways she could think of.
Janice for cheering me up too.
Mabel for asking how i was feeling n sending the message.
Jolene for sending me a encouraging message n for asking.
Miss Teo for giving me that encouraging pat.
Liang Lao Shi for cheering me up.
Mr ang for encouraging me and said that i did well.
Jieying for asking about my result and ask me to jiayou.
Guan Gong for messaging me to ask me about my result and to cheer up.
Zhi hui for calling and asked if i was alright and all even thought he is feeling kinda lousy too.
Angmo for letting me know that i am not that bad after all. ok i kinda mean here:)
and most importantly,
my dearest sis for helping me convince my parents n for encouraging me!
over all, A BIG THANK YOU!
went mac to slack after wondering around in hub den saw alot of ppl there.
den had my dinner there. took super long to finish my dinner. cause was multi tasking. sms while eating. was consoling this person la. ahyi n janice should know what i am talking about. hahax.
after dinner, got home and rest.
received messages n call from friends. really touch. thanks. n thanks that person who text me and accompany me for well half the night. we were consoling each other la. den end up crapping like shit. hahax. after crapping feel alot alot alot better. hahax. i think that person feels the same ba cause that person did mention. hahax. well i m keeping that person's identity a secret! hahax. but dun anyhow think. hahax.
well think thats all for my very dramatic day.
life sucks, but we still need to live on.
there is alot of what ifs inside my mind now.
what if ...
what if...
this feeling simply just sucks.
why do i have to go through all these?Labels: 2008 January
